that feeling is coming back

it was alright this few days i didnt have that particular feeling again


i thought i could escape from everything by just laughing away
i realized i cant...
that shadow is coming back off and on
i learn from someone that person told me to face up to reality
but not escape from it
i believe and did it
but all i got again was that feeling again
neglectance was all i got
although i am right infront of you
you treat me invisible
i am a human
not a toy
when you need me you give me attention
when you dont he ignore me throw me aside
think what i dont need you seriously
you dont understand how i felt when you left me alone
you think this is all i wanted?
this is not even waht i wanted
i dont expect anything from you
i just need a friendship trust that i could rely on
gaining trust very difficult but at least i have true friends
so i have a leaning shoulder

ohh whatever larhhs
this world no hope at all
there is no such thing as hope or even wish
even if i wish you to treat me better
will you , you will ignore me
and treat me like a toy
stop flinging around me
i am sick and tired of this kind of things
i dont see a glimpse of hope here right infront of me
previously was fine jsut of your existence everything change upside down
i can just slack out there with others and without you
always think i am easy going fine i am
but dont think i am bothersome if you want me
ohh god leave me alone

that shadow isnt leaving
i am trying hard
but i dont have any trust from anyone
that hope that i dreamt of is thrashed
stop following me around i go
not just me i am feeling damn not good now
since that shadow not leaving me
whats the use of advice asking me to face up to reality