Lies♥

I just felt like this naturally ..
Just a chat with____ made my memories come back
My dear ____ is not your fault girl .
i just wanted you to overcome this problem and it made me became weak again .
I got so stressed up and irritated with my life ..
I dont know why ?
There's alot of why since this year started ..
I hope that my juniors wont be the same thing as me ..
I want them to be happy .
Band changed my life ,to who i am today .
Although none of them realise ,Band really did changed me especially seniors and the whole band ..!
Things that happened made it so hard for me to accept the reality ..
I am not avoiding ,but i am weaken now ..
I dont know where's the happy ,strong girl that was me a few days ago .
Moodswings just came hit me and ran away leaving me to pickup the pieces ALONE ...
I have no choice to look back into my memories..
I have no choice to break down ,once again ..
who will understand how i am feeling right now ?
I felt very happy during band ,while teaching the juniors i want to let them go through what i went through as the happy times only ..NOT THE BAD TIMES .
But no one knows what will happen ...
Who will help me up again ..breaking down into tears



xoxoxo ,
♥;E,NINGG/♥