You know how much i hate myself ?

why .. it is always me to take the initiative , i know not only guys should do that . But why can't you be like any guys out there to take the initiative as well .

Gah ,today went for lunch with sist and aunt . But didn't get my c a m e r a :(((
I'm super sad laa .. Somemore the combination subjects that i want , i can't get it at all . i can't take both art / poa at the same time . i very sad lehs :(
Is like , i love both art & music . i thought that if i take art as my subject ,even if i can't get music i got art to fall back on . Then now ,i lost both . literally ..

Then as for POA , i don't mind but i want both POA + Art . Aiya ,everything now is in a mess laa .

So hesitating ,so confusing . ALL BLAME IT ON MYSELF :/
I HATE MYSELF SO MUCH ! WHY AM I LIKE THIS :@
I'm like a complicated person ,i can't stand myself anymore . this sucks .

Argh ,forget it . I shall not rant any further .. B Y E !

Lots of irritation ,

YININGG